I feel like I'll never "heal" from this, because there are so many symptoms and types of aches / pains / discomforts that are still the exactly same things I had a year ago. Why are they not getting better? I don't know.
All I do know is that a year in, I've at least found ways to take advantage of some good hours sometimes and get more things done, but once again I have to be very selective about it. The other day I played this browser game for an hour and I made my screen a little brighter, and that horrible dizziness feeling was sooo bad after. I had actually forgotten how bad it used to be, how horribly "agitating" and intense it is, ugh. It put me in the worst state of mind so quickly.
As long as I stay a vampire hermit and keep my screens dim, I can keep surviving, for now... but I can't have my life be like this forever.
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