⭓ Just Ranting #42

THIS MONTH MARKS 2 YEARS OF TORTURE! Yaaaaaaay.

I feel like I'm just losing track of my symptoms all the time now and my mind just keeps trying to "erase" my memories of really bad weeks, so thinking back to them is sometimes difficult too.

The past two weeks my main issues are probably all of my various tremors, and my eye stuff. My visual issues are so bad right now, worse than ever I think. The photosensitivity is bad, and I keep seeing the inverted afterimages of things pretty much instantly, all the time. Yesterday I was taking down my shower curtain for like 5 miuntes and the bathroom light on the top left area got burned into my eyes. And the burn mark lasted for like 10 minutes afterwards.

I think the most uneasy parts are when a dot or blotch momentarily flashes right in the very center of my vision. Not even an afterimage, jsut random flashes. It keeps happening all the time but a while now. It just scares me because what if it becomes permanent?

The buzzing in my entire body has not stopped, along with weird types of bubbling sensations in my legs and especially feet. I still get all sorts of muscle spasms all throughout my body especially at night once I start to rest. I still get a random bubbling sensation in my back sometimes when getting up from bed after lying down (being on my laptop in bed).

At least I'm generally sleeping a bit better, not every night, but it was worse a few weeks ago where I was sooo sleep deprived.

I just feel like something definitely got messed up in my neck, something probably related to some nerves, and it's not exacly "resolving itself".